Ageless Beauty

The other day I had lunch with 2 good friends. We talked about everything and nothing, we talked about life, love and everything else in between. We've all grown so much since highschool and I can't help but look back to the wonder years. Everything was much easier then. Everything.
In the midst of laughter and hidden tears, I couldn't help but feel a tinge of jealousy as my eyes panned through this lovely old couple sharing lunch. I wiped away the tears but I couldn't shrug off the desire that was tugging at my heartstrings.
I want that.
I want that for myself.

Now that I'm thinking about it, in the future I would love to have someone to grow old with. I had someone I grew up with, (and deep inside I wished and am still hoping that he would be the one I would eventually grow old with) but having someone to love you wrinkly face, toothless grin and all -- would be unbelievable. Someone who knows you bone-deep, someone who literally loves you through the good times and the bad times.

Someone you could call the love of your life.


It'll be a long, tiring road alone but I know that it will be well worth it cause I know that

I want that.
I want that for myself.
I will have that.

Battered Fighter

Send me anything. Anything but signals that are mixed.






And I don't know
If I still have some fight left in me

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But that dim flickering light (in your eyes)
Make it all alright
And somehow part of me's still strong enough to stand here
and wait.


The fight's still there, after all.
After all.
Through it all.
Always.
All the way.

Chasing This Light. For Now.

Just for today.

Things happen when you least expect them.
You wrapped your arms around me
& I pretended not to feel

But I did (I've waited forever, a day, and another for this)
& once again you touch my soul.
A wound - healing, scarred again.
A wound - cut open to bleed again.

And so I find myself in tears -- again.
Tears for you
for me for us
For today - just for today
And the days to come.


Happy Birthday.
I love you always.