Everything Hurts

Even pretending's starting to hurt.

Riding in Cars With Girls

First off.
How much does gas cost nowadays? I'm sure it's gone down but still, it ain't cheap.

I can't believe the things that I've been seeing. I can't believe that I've been pretending to know you, I thought I finally knew who you were to me - again. But as always,I was dead wrong. You always prove me wrong, you love to prove me wrong. I don't even know why I still cling on to this nothingness that I like to call hope. Clearly false hope that I make up in my head.
We've gone our separate ways I know (don't rub it on my face, I know it's been almost a year) but I just can't help but feel cheated. I feel this way still. I feel robbed of a dream. Because I NEVER SAW IT COMING. Dahil akala ko masasalba pa.
No one even bothered to give me a heads-up. No one.
So don't ask why I'm angry.
Because:

YOU DID THIS TO ME.
YOU DESTROYED ME.
I WILL NEVER EVER BE FIXED.
YOU'VE SCARRED ME FOR LIFE,
YOU LEFT ME FOR DEAD.

I have a right to feel this way. I know I do. And part of me thinks that
you do not deserve any of this - you do not deserve to be happy.

How can I love a beast??????

Go and be merry with the women you call your friends - show them who you aren't and drive them home and pick them up. I hope one day they see you for who you really are.

Words of Wisdom From The Motherchucker Himself

‘In the face of true love you just don’t give up - even if the object of your affection is begging you to.' - Chuck Bass, Gossip Girl

So what am I supposed to do now?